Project Ego 365

There will be a slight hiatus while I am away on a trip to North Carolina. I will try to update while there, but nothing is promised. When I return, I will post whatever needs to be posted.
THX

-Management.
AKA myself. AKA Justin.

How’s it feel today
To live with this jagged feeling
You thought I was a waste of time
you mixed my words
for your greedy selfish needs
What was the point
why couldnt you cut the cord
were you really that attached
or just desperate for the words
Maybe you were afraid of an attack
one that wouldn’t keep your soul intact
So suck it up (Suck it Up)
You’re living in your own mess
Seems the only way to you’ll impress
is by getting yourself undressed
Where did your dignity go?
Could you catch it before it hit the window?
I dont hope you die
I just want you to lie
In the misery you create
Until you have nowhere left to retreat
So goodbye (goodbye)
I’m better now
I’m better
Now that you’re out of my life
And I know now I’ll make it apart
Cause you won’t have another chance to break my heart.

This room breathes an air
Of vast familiarity
Ruining your life a day at a time
Waiting for someone
To take your pain away
Could it be forgiven
Could it be a symptom
Of love lost sickness
Tell the gossip to mind their own business
Loneliness is having no one to miss
Press play on the record player
Let it settle into your cerebellum
Til you develop your own voice to tell em
“This is my life, my choice, my mistake
I gave what I gave, I take what I can take”
So tell the gossip to mind their own business
Loneliness is having no one to miss
Press play on the playlist
Let it settle into your cerebellum
Til you develop your own voice to tell em
“This could be our last chance,
pick up the pace, stay silent and just dance”
(Just dance)
(Just dance)
(Just dance)

I was always a little wierd
A little unprepared
But the day took me swiftly
The night took wonder
Knowing I was here
Yet again
Things will happen to amend
This cocaine hearted masculine
Attempt to belong
To scream the effigy at the top of my lungs
I don’t know what to say
When everything is right in the wrong way
When everything is right in the wrong way
So seize the day
Just seize the day
I want to know what made you assume this
When all of our eyes were bright with hope
What brought you down
What brought you down
I just can’t complain anymore
I just can’t write anymore
I just can’t feel anymore
I went abroad for many years at a time
Hoping to catch a glimpse
A simple glimpse
Of time passed so elegantly
Of time passing so gracefully
I left behind the man in me

Your eyes are like portals
To a harsh russian sky
your pupils the sun
that burned me on contact
So what is it I lack
A simple way of living
or the alcohol induced misery
that you battle day to day
Well what else can I be
but a boy in this world
filled with endless girls
but none of them are like you
I tried to figure out
the perfect way to talk about
the things to bring us together
but love tore us apart in the end
I sing the same damn songs
Every single three course day
I don’t have this ability
that let’s me function
like a normal human being
but what’s normal anyway
To be plain, not insane
would be a life not worth living
I wonder if this even came out right
If so then I can finally say goodnight
so goodnight.
Am I right?

This is the second
in a subtle pair of warnings
When I’ll come at you
with a slight understanding
I won’t be gentle
I won’t be harsh
I’ll be somewhere inbetween
and somewhere you won’t be
I can’t believe
you’d justify your discontent
with millions of ideas
involving you and him
So save this banner
When it really matters
I just want the knowledge
That yesterday’s love won’t be lost
(LOST LOVE)
I can’t hear your voice
Was mine louder than yours?
Did my echo melt your words?
Shadows follow me now
Ones I thought were pleasant
In the end they were nothing
Delusions reappear
Invading my mind
I have no where left to run
(NO WHERE)
I can’t begin to think
that this could be the thing
That will sink
This brittle ship of wood and ash
I can’t recall my past
So cast
This spell on my flesh
One that will open and tear
my brittle spine from my back
To let me know
You use to show
The little piece of tenderness
That rearranged itself
into a deadly weapon

Man:
So here we are once again
Between bed sheets, even less friends
I cant contain my apathy
but your crying is halting my sympathy

Woman:
It’s your fault I feel this way
I capture glimpses of your personality
I know I want it to be part of me
Please if you have words to say..

Man:
Stop it right there
This is why I can’t care
My bottles are empty
and once again I’m battling my sympathy

Woman:
You’re doing it there again
Same words over and over
What are you trying to prove
Do you even realize all that you’ll lose

Man:
The funny thing about your COA
Is you never even listen to what I have to say
You created this false illusion
Never realizing the obvious solution

Woman:
I never heard you say that before
Those lines knocked me clear, but still unsure
I still have my doubts, my hesitations
I need some time to think all this over.

Man:
This heart is now closing
There’s no more emotional openings
You lost your chance my dear
Now pack up your shit, and get the fuck out of here.

The trees hold sweeping sounds
Of all those love filled nouns
We kept it together
Despite all the stormy weather
This is a day we cherish most
Cause I know you’re my heart’s ghost
I think about you all the time
Always thinking up new ways to rhyme
to articulate just how I feel for you
So you know these feelings are true
So Happy Valentine’s day
I hope we will go the same way
Because I fear the clouds will get darker
without you my little mile marker
you’re the one I want to make all of life’s plans
who’ll put up with all my stupid bands
So let’s carry forth these words
til our ideas get absurd
I know oh I know yeah I know
you are certainly worth all this show
of heartfelt emotional stances
my mind will go blank without your dances
the moves that make my heart sink
you’ll be the one that I can’t wait to link
my mind and body to
forever and always, my own personal love crew.

So I made my moves and thought you followed my lead. I knew my actions would speak louder than my words ever could. I could only hope you took this to heart. As I found out, you did but in an opposite way. I was thrust out to the street again forced to watch as another woman tried to make your dreams come true. I didn’t know what I ever did wrong as I got thrown out without wisdom or song. Will I ever find true love? Or is humanity forced onto that mating dance day after day. No one will ever really know. Goodnight moon I spoke too soon. I have no hope once again

This is a story of how I sabotage myself with women. I always leave an impression, but never a really good one. As time went by, I realized that we were never more than friends all along.(all along.) So when will this part of one become a party of two? What can I do to prove to you that this is more than you think? So I’ll break down the barrier cast around your heart and hope that my words and actions will really ever matter.

I drove this far to tell you to hop shotgun and ride past all those mile markers that indicate where we’re not. But now even after our midnight drives, I’m pretty confident that I hate you. I want to break you. Everything about the way you move and compose yourself, makes me regret ever having been your helpless little pet. So listen up, I’m done. Go find another man, hon. Another life to ruin, another escape plan. For now this boy knows better, and seeing bluer skies and clearer weather, because now I figured out that your face is only good for myspace pouts.