February 2009
19 posts
ATTN
There will be a slight hiatus while I am away on a trip to North Carolina. I will try to update while there, but nothing is promised. When I return, I will post whatever needs to be posted.
THX
-Management.
AKA myself. AKA Justin.
02/20/2009 - Fur
How’s it feel today
To live with this jagged feeling
You thought I was a waste of time
you mixed my words
for your greedy selfish needs
What was the point
why couldnt you cut the cord
were you really that attached
or just desperate for the words
Maybe you were afraid of an attack
one that wouldn’t keep your soul intact
So suck it up (Suck it Up)
You’re living in your...
02/19/2009 - Overcome this Sickness
This room breathes an air
Of vast familiarity
Ruining your life a day at a time
Waiting for someone
To take your pain away
Could it be forgiven
Could it be a symptom
Of love lost sickness
Tell the gossip to mind their own business
Loneliness is having no one to miss
Press play on the record player
Let it settle into your cerebellum
Til you develop your own voice to tell em
“This...
02/18/2009 - Cocaine Hearted Masculine
I was always a little wierd
A little unprepared
But the day took me swiftly
The night took wonder
Knowing I was here
Yet again
Things will happen to amend
This cocaine hearted masculine
Attempt to belong
To scream the effigy at the top of my lungs
I don’t know what to say
When everything is right in the wrong way
When everything is right in the wrong way
So seize the day
Just...
02/17/2009 - Solar
Your eyes are like portals
To a harsh russian sky
your pupils the sun
that burned me on contact
So what is it I lack
A simple way of living
or the alcohol induced misery
that you battle day to day
Well what else can I be
but a boy in this world
filled with endless girls
but none of them are like you
I tried to figure out
the perfect way to talk about
the things to bring us together...
02/16/2009 - Untitled
This is the second
in a subtle pair of warnings
When I’ll come at you
with a slight understanding
I won’t be gentle
I won’t be harsh
I’ll be somewhere inbetween
and somewhere you won’t be
I can’t believe
you’d justify your discontent
with millions of ideas
involving you and him
So save this banner
When it really matters
I just want the...
02/15/2009 - An Idle Conversation
Man:
So here we are once again
Between bed sheets, even less friends
I cant contain my apathy
but your crying is halting my sympathy
Woman:
It’s your fault I feel this way
I capture glimpses of your personality
I know I want it to be part of me
Please if you have words to say..
Man:
Stop it right there
This is why I can’t care
My bottles are empty
and once again...
02/14/2009 - Remember that time...?
The trees hold sweeping sounds
Of all those love filled nouns
We kept it together
Despite all the stormy weather
This is a day we cherish most
Cause I know you’re my heart’s ghost
I think about you all the time
Always thinking up new ways to rhyme
to articulate just how I feel for you
So you know these feelings are true
So Happy Valentine’s day
I hope we will go the...
02/13/2009 - I've screwed this up again
So I made my moves and thought you followed my lead. I knew my actions would speak louder than my words ever could. I could only hope you took this to heart. As I found out, you did but in an opposite way. I was thrust out to the street again forced to watch as another woman tried to make your dreams come true. I didn’t know what I ever did wrong as I got thrown out without wisdom or song....
02/12/2009 - What a waste of my time
This is a story of how I sabotage myself with women. I always leave an impression, but never a really good one. As time went by, I realized that we were never more than friends all along.(all along.) So when will this part of one become a party of two? What can I do to prove to you that this is more than you think? So I’ll break down the barrier cast around your heart and hope that my words...
02/11/2009 - Don't go into that Light
Let’s tear it up and bring it back to life. Anything can happen if you’d just believe. I held out my hands waiting for your touch, so hopefully I could bring you back to this cold shell. Undisturbed you are laying oh so very still, so still. I don’t even know how to contain my composure. This story was brought to you by all the memories I held for so long that I felt like...
02/10/2009 - Something about Canvas
Waste my time before i conquer the thoughts of elegance. bright lights hemorrhage bonds that entwined us yet again. i will not barter i will not plea, ill only become the man i want to be. listen to the crescendo rising. rising. til silence deafens your rationale. my mind is interlaced with technology and art. the blinking of the soft led light was always a source of warmth and understanding. one...
02/09/2009 - This is all just an experiment gone...
It’s never your fault that things are this way
I just talk and talk to break this chance
But it never helps it always just depends on what you say
My, my what a mess we’ve made of this silly romance
One we knew wouldn’t last for more than ten minutes
So you’ll pack your bags, gather your things and head downtown
So quick to leave, slamming the car door, so fast I...
02/08/2009 - To make this better, let's improvise
Let this house sink
beneath the horizon
nothing left to write about
except wood panel and rebar
So reflect on past lives
Even ones that aren’t my own
Letting the walls collapse inside my head
Waking up to the piercing sound
that alarmed me for so many years
Through the joy of all the hidden tears
I’ll watch as this place goes under
For once in my short life
I can cash in...
02/07/2009 - Omen
Such an ill omen
When you see my face comin
I dont know where I went wrong
To cause all this pleasure and pain
Seems like Im only good for one thing
Breathe free, from your last indignity
Life is like russian roulette
you keep pulling the trigger
Til one day you have a family
Before you even know what hit you
The only solution is to aim a little higher
maybe pray for a misfire
Isnt the...
02/06/2009 - Suture
My heart is always on my sleeve
Down my arm from a quarter or three
I’m getting so tired of that cliche
Like that’s the only noteworthy thing about me
I do care I really do
But occasionally I forget who’s who
Unless we’ve had a moment
of continuous happiness
Like birds before a storm
Haven’t I heard this line before?
My paranoia seems to be contagious
The...
02/05/2009 - In That Sinking Room
There’s a feeling that’s sinking this room
Every moment passing getting me closer to this tomb
I feel so invigorated that I want to collapse
I need to learn to relax
Before the memories rush back
Before the memories rush back
So grab some ammo cause
I sense you are ready to attack
Shooting my wounded heart
To the point where it forgets to chart
The beating of this miracle...
02/04/2009 - First verse, revise, and rehearse
You make me feel like my voice has meanin’
Decomposing the words to reconstruct the reason
Like snow to trees in this bitter winter season
I’ll shroud you in doubt and illustrate my treason
and I wish I had a little window
One with which to pull your heart into
I think I need self help books
Just to get me through the day
and even after reading I have even less to say
So break...
Project Ego 365 -- A note
This is going to be where I start my new project called Project Ego 365. It’s just a fun thing where instead of posting 365 pictures…one a day for a year, I’ll write one poem/lyric/idea a day for a year and see what happens. I’m heavily considering posting musical accompaniment if I am feeling it. So there we go.